I don’t admire anybody
When we’re kids, we tend to look up to or admire various people.
From family parents to friends, celebrities. The relation doesn’t matter. We look for inspiration, an example to aspire to be.
We can spend all of our lives admiring others for tons of reasons.
In the last few months I’ve come to realize that I don’t admire anybody.
I always had role models and people I admired throughout my life, and I could explain why I admired them.
Now though, at 28 years old, there’s actually nobody that I admire 100%.
There’s nobody that I’m aspiring to be like.
At work, in my personal life, famous people – nobody.
For the first time in my life, I can say that confidently.
Why?
I’ve thought about this.
The reason – I’m exactly who I want to be.
Most of the time. Can’t always be “perfect”.
I’ve accomplished so many goals that I’ve set out for myself in a relatively short time.
I’ve actually done way more than I would have ever imagined.
International moves. New languages. Different jobs in different fields that I wanted to try at one point.
All on my own. Beating to my own drum.
I don’t know anyone else that’s like me, with my own circumstances.
And that’s true for all of us.
The person we should admire and aspire to be is ourselves.
We’ve got that power.
And that’s not from a narcissistic point of view. It’s reality.
I can never be you and you can never be me.
We can only be ourselves.
Our life experiences are our own.
Only we can carve our own path ahead. If we choose to.
We can follow a set culture if we wish to – if it aligns with who we want to be.
But what if we want to be a black sheep?
What if we have no example to follow?
Then we are the example.
This was (still is) my case.
And it’s scary. It’s not easy.
It’s not easy because it’s easier to look to someone else in admiration and wish to follow their path. It’s already outlined. We can see, more or less, what the outcome will be for us.
We don’t know the outcome when we forge our own path. When we are our own “example”.
I never know what’s next for me. I’ve made so many different decisions simply following my own thoughts with what I thought was right.
I have no regrets.
Sometimes it works out. Sometimes it doesn’t. But even when it doesn’t work out, it’s a lesson, so seemingly it still works out.
It helps to reflect on where we are as a result of the decisions we’ve made.
It puts things into perspective.
And despite the momentary anxiety, it still drives us forward.
It’s fine to not admire anybody.
It’s better to do what we believe is best for us. No matter how hard, or scary, that may be.
It’s better to be the person we admire.
